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Today was my first day back at classes.
It's nice to be back doing something involving a schedule.

My classes so far seem to be ok. I tried to go online and change some of them today and was unsuccessful. My first class of the day is Animal psyc or something to that effect.
The prof seems pretty cool. I don't know where he is from but he has a funny accent.
I like it. He also wears pants that "fit". LOL
He showed us a video today. It was of some birds. Ya that's right. The perfect way to disgust me. They were doing some mating dance, but it was on water. They kind of ran on the water as part of it.
It was nauseating.
I hope that's all of the birds I will see this year. But judging by his enthusiasm. There will be plenty more bird shows.

My second class was theatre and film. What a joke.
I showed up for the class only to find out that is had been cancelled for the day.
Not the most professional and respect demanding way to begin a semester.

My last class of the day was Nutritional anthropology. Apparently there will be a take home final exam.
I've never had one of those before.. I can't say that I am looking forward to it.
I hate writing essays.

Right now i am in Munir's office hanging out with the only friend i have right now. Mousa.
We spent new years eve together and have decided that we are going to support each other in our weight loss goals. He has already quit smoking since the beginning of the new year and is starting he weight loss regiment on the 8th cuz he is "waiting for the pool to be reopened" which i think is a load of bullocks and i will be left to motivate myself. Which I suppose could be a good thing if it ever happens.

What else is going on with me? Not too much.
Work is still silly but I am finding it more enjoyable as time goes by. I'm not sure if it was because no one wanted to get to know me or cuz i didn't want to get to know them. But either way i am having a better time.

It's funny being in an engineering lab. It doesn't smell as bad as it usually does. But i think that is cuz most of it's occupants are still away for the holidays.
LOL
so terrible but true
with the exceptions of Munir, Waleed, Adib and Mousa. The all smell famously, pretty-much all of the time.

I'm trying to learn how to write Arabic again. Mousa helped me today. But his calligraphy is VERY different from that of Waleed so I am finding it hard to be consistent and to recall what i have already learned.
But it sure looks cool.
Wow.
this is an entirely boring blog
i need to think of something funny to post...
There is a guy named alex in this lab. he is from Taiwan.
mousa was away for a bit and so i was chatting with him for a while.
It was cool. he's a pretty nice guy.
Very quiet tho.
Anyways the second mousa comes back alex ignores me and goes back to work.
not saying a thing, like mid sentence...
i am impressed by his concentration skills.

that wasn't a funny story..
damn it

i'm sorry
i have nothing
well..
this really isn't a great start to the new year in the way of blogging.

My apologies

xsandos

kklc

6 weird things aboot me.

lol..
lets make this ten weird things.

1. i have spent the better part of 3 hours upside trying to get my eyesight to flip....
learned the next day in school it takes a couple days... was upset with that news..

2. i can't cook... is what i tell everyone.
it's kind of a lie. i can actually make tons of stuff.. i'm just lazy to the point of ridiculousness. and i don't care enough about the taste of the food.. more just that i don't feel hungry.. and sometimes.. its just easier to feel hungry then to cook something.

3. only this year have i started to moisturize.. which isn't so weird..(i just don't like the moisturized sticking to my clothes feeling that doesn't go away no matter how much i rub it in.) but i was honestly freaked out that if i used moisturizer that my body would stop making the natural stuff and i would be dependent on it FOREVER... and how would i get my back??
do people moisturize their own backs?
what about their butts?
where do u draw the line?

4. i can't stand in front of a microwave while it is on. and it freaks me out when other people do it...
microwaves flying at ur head.. screwing up ur electrons and creating free radicals which are running crazy in ur body...scary stuff
same with cooking with aluminum pots.. freaks me out.. Alzheimer's etc..

5. i hate being tickled.. not for the tickling part.. but because it is so awkward.
i kind of have to be in the mood to be ticklish.. otherwise i am not.. and then its just weird when someone starts to tickle you
... they are just touching you weird and looking for a response... yuck
(touching of the neck and armpits applies here.. its gross... but it weirds me out when people are ok with it.. so i find that i poke people in the armpit to make sure they aren't weird.. and then if they are.. i find it fascinating/disturbing and so continue to do it..)

6. i can't stop chewing gum
don't give me gum.. i'll keep chewing it.
i save it at dinner in disgusting ways. sticking to the side of my glass and on the side of a plate or on a utensil, keep it in my hand... all for future use.. i chew it until it disintegrates and then i get a massive headache.. i'm an idiot when it comes to gum.

7. one regarding boys
i can be madly and deeply and obsessively in love with you for an infinite period of time. but the second you start to show any symptoms of the same behaviour i find you revolting/disgusting and want nothing to do with you... really.

8. i could live in a washroom if it had a fridge and a computer. i friggin love them.
i spend too much time in the shower.. i love it. not the whole being naked part... if it wasn't so inconvenient i would shower with clothes on. if i could be always clothed for the rest of my life.. that would rock as well...oh yes and for those of u who don't know i always wear two bras at once...

9. i have penis envy soooooo bad.

10. i talk to myself too much.
there is normal weird mumblings that most everyone does.
and i do that too..
but i laugh out loud walking down the street and comment on things i have just said to myself.
on drives home from hammy and back i find that i talk out loud for the entire trip with a two sided conversation. generally with a scottish accent.
ie
a couple weeks ago i was walking home late with my hood up and i was following this girl who was probably 5m in front of me.
i didn't realize what i was doing.. but i was trying to pronounce an Arabic word (which i am having extreme difficulty doing to this day) out loud.. just repeating it over and over again to myself with different inflections etc.. i wasn't saying it super loud.. it was more whispery.. which was probably creepier for the girl up ahead.. she stopped turned around and looked at me.. then quickened her pace and went into her house...
sooo funny.. and ridiculous..

there are sooooooo many more
good lord.
i'll stop here.
if you would like to leave an example that i have blatantly missed
go ahead in the comments section
or write a post about it.. lol..

xxoxoxoxoxo

Skol
kc

Insomnia

Wow.

So the emotional basket case strikes again. Impressive.

So it is 230am and i have to be awake in 2 hours to get ready for work.... guess how mad i am with myself right now.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I'm not in the least bit tired. i worked tonight. didn't have any caffeine and have generally been good all day.
But alas.. here i sit. i feel heavy. but i'm not that shivering cold feeling that you get when ur exhausted. i am more along the lines of warm and toasty.
someone in my house likes it hot. and i have no idea who it is. but i really think it's silly.
my room seems to get the brunt of the warmth. its a big room. but i think i have more heat registers than everyone else.

anyways here's what i've been up to other than spazzing like a manic-depressive.

I went to see the movie Babel. I'm not sure what it was supposed to be. I think they made an attempt at making a profound movie and ended up with incoherent blabber. With unnecessary unpleasant nudity. And i really think i am always up for nudity but not this time.
Joyce might like some parts. There is a deaf mute Japanese girl.. so they speak in sign. ???
the rest of it was just crap. it evoked some emotion randomly. but really. it sucked.. and i like weird movies.. lol... remember that totally screwed up movie we went to see jazz?? Palindromes? oh man... it was kinda like that but it had Brad Pitt in it.

Otherwise, i have a stalker.
Her name is Leah, (layah) i may have mentioned her previously.
we went tree climbing, which i thought was something that comes naturally to humans.. considering... but anyways... she totally thought she had it figured and then FREAKED out cuz she apparently didn't know she was scared of heights.. friggin funny stuff...
we eat together and she just shows up at my house a lot. ... a LOT...
i'm not used to people just dropping by.
it's weird.. like 3 times a day.. i am not exaggerating.. that's stalking right??
i dunno..
but she's a bit funny and jewish!!! yay i met a jewish person finally.. seriously.. i hear there are tons of jews all over the place and then i am unable to meet any of them..
and now i have..
and she likes the barenaked ladies even more than i do..
impressive



here she is... and some extremely unimpressed girl.. this was taken Jane during biology for idiots.

i TOTALLY failed an exam on friday.. oh man.. Anthropology.. goodness..
"aegypticous boisea" random crap... honeslty.. what are these people expecting from me?

my grandpa apparently tried to die last weeked.. actually the night i made my last post...
so i spent the weekend at home. was weird to see him in such shitty shape.. he is doing a bit better.
but i think he's gunna die soon.
feels weird. i don't even know the guy.. but i do.. but not really at all... i feel badly for my dad..

i live with AMAZING people
i love them
Munir is the coolest cat there is.
man.. i can't even explain it.

oh toilet paper....

i am listening to jack johnson right now..
all of his songs are kinda like lullabies
close your eyes, relax, sway, your arms feel tingly and you feel like your made of frosting.. french vanilla... m...with those weird little coloured bits in it..

mentions have to be sent to the Joyce and Jazz. How did i get you guys? you're both amazing, supportive and understanding. (not to mention quite pretty... you husbands are very lucky)
Ever since i've met you jazz.. i've been spazzing. and you seem to just take me in step..
i'm sure it's normal for you by now.. but man.. i appreciate you, i wish i could give you 1/2 as much as you give me.
thanks for the email.. it made me cry and cry.. but i've been nuts so that could be a bit of it.

alright.. i don't know what else to say.. i have to pee...?

i bought a bracelet for like 25 dollars and broke it.. nice.. it was made by some tribes man in africa somewhere.. i bought it at a fairtrade thing... its make of sandalwood.. which SMELLS AWESOME.. oh man.. i make everyone smell it.. soo funny.. they look at me like they think the voices in my head told me to....

funny stuff

it's 315... i think i will go pee and get some cereal and i dunno... frick.. this is stupid

you coming home for christmas jazzy?

if you have read this, you are WAY ABOVE average in the attractive area... and probably intelligence as well.. (deciphering and such)

xsandos

kklc

Ever wonder if you're a complete fucking idiot and everyone you know is just too nice to fill you in??

Obviously i'm feeling a tad bit sorry for myself this evening and i need to vent.

I feel like SHIT. i just got an exam mark back... I felt i did well.. better than average even?? ya maybe.. how do i do?? well lets say a fucking monkey who felt like colouring in the dots on a scantron sheet probably would have received a mark comparable to mine.

so this leaves me thinking... WHAT THE FUCK??? the class isn't that hard.. i thought i understood the concepts.. i fucking studied.. i took notes... i was happy little studious kid and what the fuck do i get? nothing... not a fucking thing in return.. i am sitting here thinking i would have done better if i hadn't had studied...

my poor mother.. she's stuck in her little deluded world where her little girl is smart and is going to do something with her life... well sorry mom but it looks like it's up to jeff to be successful cuz it looks like i am going to be cleaning toilets and kissing rich peoples asses for the rest of my life.

i freaked this summer when i realized i got into uni.. for this fucking reason.. i can't fucking do this.
i never once did well in high school. i am so middle of the pack in every fucking way its painful.


(emo pic)

I FUCKING HATE MIDDLE OF THE PACK!!!!!
WHY CAN'T I STAND OUT IN ANY FUCKING FASHION??
once again.. to reiterate what has been said before and will continually be said again.. i have NOTHING GOING FOR ME.not one iota of one random speck of me..
I'm going to have to spell check this thing like eight times before i post it.. like every time.. and yet i miss stuff.. why?? cuz i'm a stinking idiot that's why..

it's days like this that make me realize how completely and utterly useless i am.. i don't give back to humanity in any way.
i obviously have no purpose.. if i do have one its to be middle of the pack or bottom of the pack so the people who are on top have someone to look down upon..."please walk all over me.. i love it"

really? do u actually think your life has meaning?
all the people who read this blog (that i know of) are giving back.. being good people.. making the world a better place in some fashion.. most of you are helping people who can't help themselves..
all i do is sit around and think of myself.. oh poor me.. like right now..

i honestly can't stand myself..
my incoherent blabber
complete bullshit
i fucking suck

going to go and try to study so i don't get kicked out of university...

kc

ps if joyce has read this I apologize for the profanity

the bain of my childhood

i took this pic of myself in the caf... i like it


Socks
I fucking hate them.

i have memories of hating socks for what i am going to consider my entire life. Winter is the WORST time for socks...

Walking.... You're thinking man i probably should have laced my boots correctly so i'm not the annoying person who is dragging their feet... meh.. too bad.. i hate having to untie them to take them off.. so that's a no go.

still walking... hmm... maybe i should have thought about the type of socks i was going to wear with my boots today.. something isn't right.... but honestly.. i own like 1 type of sock.. this will have to do...

a few steps later... hmm... seems my sock is sick of doing its service and has decided to abandon his post... thats ok.. it's still kinda hanging on to my heel... as long as my last strong hold sticks i can make it to school.. i'll flex my toes.. maybe that will help it stay up...

1 step later... my defenses caved and the top of my sock is now around the arch of my foot....
now this wouldn't be soo bad except for the fact that 90% of my sock is now bunched around my toes... so i'm sorta limping a bit...
but i was walking funny before trying to flex my toes in a pathetic attempt to somehow keep the sock at bay...

next step... the entire sock is crammed up around my toes... and it stinking hurts... but cuz people who stop on the side walk to stand precariously on one foot while trying to balance and bend down and grab the other boot to dig out the sock of doom, that has somehow managed to basically attach itself to the boot... well they look like idiots.. i choose the discomfort and the funny looks from people who are wondering why i have a slight hobble...

i get to class... i sit down.. get all my shit together... and you think i am free and clear.. i get to dig this fucking sock out of my boot chasm... but no! out of 600.. yes count the 600 seats in the lecture hall a big group of oriental kids decide to swarm me... so now.. because of potentially horrible foot odour... and the idea flying through your head that i will become the stinky kid to all the oriental kids at school... which is a fucking lot of people... i have to sit through a three hour lecture trying to adjust the sock periodically by shoving your hand into the boot...with my foot still in it... so my eyes will stop watering from the discomfort...only to be thwarted by the fucking sock demon again on the walk home...

thinking about buying those sock suspenders...
or being the sockless girl... which is gross to think about...
socks serve their purpose...just like underwear...
but lets not start giving them any extra credit...

i have an exam tomorrow... intro to neuroscience...gunna fail
please send me happy thoughts

troy, mike scott and some other guys have started a band.. they fucking rock
"boss rebel"

if you want to check them out... http://myspace.com/bossrebel

i am eating pretty much only peanut butter and crackers now adays.. lol...
gourmet chef right here

what is everyone else doing?

my house had the first toilet paper conversation last night. oh man... its funny stuff
Zu gets all worked up about everything... and talks really loud.. sometimes its a bit much.. but she's a cool person... so meh

are you officially dating that guy bre? u kiss him yet?? lol.. thats right... i'm asking u on here cuz i have no idea when i will see u next...

ok i need to go and study.. so i almost pass my exam..

xsandos

ytsirk

you asked.. i wish i had pics for this

Things that make morgan hilarious.
oh there are so many things.
First things first...
- your general sense of humour. to be witness to you laughing at something you think is funny is great. when u start crying and have laughing bursts for the rest of the day and continuing on into the next.
-when you get mad at your brother. or any time you yell in general is pretty funny.
-something that goes along with that is the air punch/swing in a mock attempt to hit someone.. but it looks like you are putting ur whole body into it.... or your general willingness to hit your friends...lol
-how picky you are about some things such as food... uncooked veggies and little to no lettuce on a burger.
-and about who can touch your face and where.
-elbow skin
-how you can dress like the slobbiest person in the world and smell awful and still knock anyones socks off within a 3 mile radius.
-the way you wear your socks as tho they are shoe... outside in the etc...
-how u refuse to wash your hair more than once a week
-how you get your mom to do your homework for you.. even in college.
-you like being in your car but you rarely like to be the one to drive.
-how you drive in silence
-and then how you listen to Q97.5 and BX93 and can sing along.
-how one minute you can be a complete wuss when it comes to bugs and the next be the one to get frustrated call everyone else wimps and go kill it yourself.
-your complete willingness to dress up like an old man go to a graveyard and take dumb pictures.
-your laugh.
-the way you beg for massages.
-how grumpy you can get and as a result act like a 2 year old (cutest one ever)
-the way you wrap yourself up in a blanket, there is no possible way to share it with you.
-the way you used to just drape yourself on people.
-you're actually a member of curves
-the way you boss around old handicapped people and enjoy it
-the way you can take life and enjoy it... (hanging out in an old persons room and help them decide which channel to watch for like 2 hours.. and get paid for it)
-you innocence and your feigned innocence

oh man there are so many other reasons in the world that you are hilarious.
but those are the ones i thought of off the top of my head

if anyone has any to offer just post them in the comment section

i love you bre.. i know we don't see each other much
but ur definitely one of my favourite people in the whole world

love and such to everyone

kristy

I'm bringing sexy back

weird thing i learned today
"butter tart" is an canadian term.. not used anywhere else in the world.. that explain a lot... when i was in europe i was looking for them EVERYWHERE.. no luck... i suppose this is why...

OK!!

So this is the pic you have all been waiting for.
A week or so ago i was playing around with my camera and i noticed that the lighting in my room could make anyone 10 times more attractive than usual. So i started taking pic's of my stomach and twisting and stuff to see if i could make it look like i have abs.
oh baby
i succeeded!! it's shadows and contorted fat rolls.. but it's still hot.



i've been trying to appreciate my body more. I don't particularly like it.
but i have been getting some cool pics.




jasmine.
you've been home
now you have to post about how you were so happy so see us.
i was certainly happy to see you. even if only briefly

bre.. ur hilarious i love you

have a happy turkey weekend

xsandos

ytsirk